-♪ 呢班叻女邊度嚟㗎？ ♪ -（猛烈敲門）走開呀！我沖緊涼呀！ LAURA: 老竇仲有十分鐘就到！ 我知啦，我就出嚟㗎喇！ 你去吹啲波波啦。
Ms. Swift，有冇嘢想同班後生女講呀？
（尖聲）：人生路上唔係成日有人陪我，但音樂永遠都喺度。 -（笑聲） -到我喇，我下一個！ 唔得。會傷咗啲後生腦㗎。你唔可以做。 -Lila，你個腦同我一樣咁後生咋。 -唔係。 （尖聲）：我係個成熟嘅女人嚟㗎。
你哋搞緊乜嘢呀？
你哋得一個任務㗎咋--氣球。唔係掛。 （尖聲）： -我哋盡緊力㗎喇。 -我哋仲有成個鐘喎，得唔得呀？
-（車門關上聲） -哦，咩聲嚟㗎？
Kristen! （吹口哨）佢到咗喇！
嚟緊喇！
喂。（索鼻聲）
-唔好！ -喂！ 咩事，咩事...？
-我哋要多十分鐘！ -一家人？ 咁呀，我就吹， -吹脹你哋。 -哦，女仔們，佢只係想見吓你哋。 -過嚟啦。 -（女仔們起哄） 佢只係想見吓你哋，佢只係想見吓你哋，過嚟啦。攞埋個橫額。
哦，唔好意思我走開咗咁耐。我哋好好呀。 -（Andy 呻吟） -哦，天啊！ 你好靚呀。 多謝。我呢排多咗出街。 哦，天啊！ 阿女！ -過嚟呢邊！ 過嚟呀，哦。 -（女仔們起哄） 爹哋！ -LYNN: 快啲講你有幾掛住我哋。 -ANDY: 好。 嚟啦。 （尖聲）：呢個屋企最需要嘅就係紀律。
-紀律。 -（含糊嘅傾偈聲，起哄）
哦。
（呼氣）我需要性愛。哦，係咩？
咁呀，我哋最好拿拿臨開始啦。好。
唔得，唔得，唔得，唔得，唔得，開住燈。 -（笑聲） -我要睇住自己做緊乜。好。
-哦，咩事呀？ -冇，冇嘢。我，嗯... 我挨咗落個爐度。我-我焫親自己。 -咩話？邊度呀？ -喺我個肚度。 -哎吔。俾我睇吓。 -唔得，唔得，唔得，真係冇事㗎。喂，喂，俾我睇吓。
搞咩呀？ 咩話？個爐整到你咁樣？
係呀。我整緊班戟。我好快返嚟。
-真係好耐，好耐冇做過喇。 -係囉。你唔記得咗點做呀？
-我可能要上返幾堂先得。 -（笑聲） 我諗我隻手放呢度？
-啊，放低少少。 -哦。 -哦！（呻吟） -哦，對唔住，我唔記得咗添。哦，唔得，唔得，唔得，唔得，唔得，唔得。再做多次頭先嗰個。 Kris，我唔想整親你。 我話，再做多次。
哎吔！（呻吟） 我唔覺得咁樣係好主意喎。 -（尖叫） -喂，喂，噓！喂！喂！（噓聲）會俾班女聽到㗎。好冇？
唔好，唔好，唔好，喂。我仲想做㗎。我只係--我哋可以稍為降一級溫。我哋做緊乜...？
-呢啲係咩嚟？ -嗱，封口膠布。做咩呀，我哋而家綁架人咩？
嗱，呢個，都係。 -（被摀住嘴嘅咕噥聲） -我買嚟俾我哋玩㗎。
ANDY: 哼。唔。
ANDY: 哦，嘩。
真係得個嘩字。
媽咪？
呢部機叫 M-LTS，係代表...某啲嘢。係康奈爾大學一個新嘅神經學研究。 哦，嗰個磁力顳頂葉刺激儀。 係，我諗係啩。佢係，嗯，佢哋嗰邊做緊嘅腦部測繪。 -哦，明喇，即係「上帝頭盔」？ -查實，嗰個名係有註冊商標㗎。所以我哋被要求唔好咁樣叫佢。 -佢係咩嚟㗎？ -用磁場去探測腦部嘅區域。梵蒂岡嘅宗座科學院要求我哋調查呢樣嘢。 -點解嘅？ -佢會令受試者產生靈性嘅異象。據講有百分之十嘅受試者會改宗基督教。教廷想要一份分析，去睇吓呢啲結果係咪合理，值唔值得進一步審查。定係應該將呢樣嘢當成騙局掉咗佢。 -咩類型嘅騙局？ -我唔知喎。不過就係你哋三個要出場嘅時候喇。寫份報告出嚟就得。呢單嘢應該好易搞。 （含糊嘅傾偈聲） 低強度磁力顳頂葉刺激儀。你研究緊乜嘢？
腦入面嘅β-澱粉樣蛋白斑塊同tau蛋白。 哦，用嚟應對神經退化性疾病。
你係跟梵蒂岡嘅？
唔係，我係...跟佢哋嘅。 咁你係做緊腦部測繪？
嗯，係。呢個唔係關於宗教神經學基礎嘅研究。嗰啲只係刺激松果腺同頂葉皮層時產生嘅副產品。 有幾多人戴住佢嘅時候 -有過靈性體驗？ -大概三成。 梵蒂岡嘅人話你想同其中一啲人傾偈？
係。
嗯...我行咗喺一條雪地嘅路上。我感覺到有個人喺我隔籬行緊。
於是我望過去，但嗰度冇人喎。
然後我感覺到有隻手搭喺我膊頭度。係男人嘅手。我聽到有人細聲講嘢。（低語）：「你行錯方向喇。轉身返去。」
向住邊度？
我唔知。但我感受到一種從未感受過嘅嘢。喜樂。
我好憎用呢個字--聽落好鬼宗教咁。（輕笑）係咪有呢個字㗎？
我一戴上佢，就即刻置身喺一個白色嘅球體入面。我飄浮過啲行星同太陽。然後有個行過嚟我度。佢伸出佢隻手，話佢係 Keith Moon。嗰個鼓手？
係呀。我都唔知點解。但佢喺天堂度，佢話：「我冇車死我個司機喎。」 -（笑聲） -DAVID: 跟住... -就咁樣？ -係。跟住...之後所有嘢都唔同咗。我唔再覺得咁抑鬱喇。
嗯...
嗰吓...
（輕笑）係，嗯...
...好靚。
冇任何字可以形容--係...（呼氣）
咁，你點睇？
我覺得佢哋比我預期中更加有說服力。而且佢哋嘅異象跟住佢哋唔走。我意思係，佢哋到而家都仲講緊喜樂同上帝。我哋喺度做緊乜？
你咁講係咩意思？
嗯，教會想喺呢件事度得到啲乜？
我估係，佢哋研究緊各種宗教體驗。定係佢哋想用科技去令人改宗？
我懷疑呢個講法。靈性唔單止係觸發幾個突觸咁簡單。但呢班人的確係改變咗。嗰個女人--佢嘅異象改變咗佢嘅人生。唔係，接受抑鬱治療先至救返佢條命。咁你係話佢嘅異象同佢嘅改變冇關？
唔係，我係話佢嘅異象只係附帶嘅。個頭盔刺激咗佢嘅額葉，喺生理層面上紓緩咗佢嘅抑鬱。或者係異象行先，生理效果跟尾。嗯，博士？如果唔用宗教語言，我哋仲可以點樣形容走出抑鬱呢個奇蹟？
我哋用嚟形容崇高嘢嘅詞彙，完全係被靈性所影響嘅。神父？
好。我準備好喇。準備好做乜？
下一節測試。邊個做第一個？
教區話你哋想成為受試者。嗯，我準備好喇。主教真係好心提我哋呢樣嘢喎。 -如果你唔想做嘅話... -BEN: 唔係。我想做。準備好。 Ben，你認真㗎？
我想見到上帝。邊個會唔想見到上帝啫？嚟啦。 咁，呢個乜嚟，法拉第籠？
-係我嘅改裝嚟。 -哦。佢可以屏蔽電磁場發射。 -你肯定你想咁樣做，Ben？ -你講笑呀？
有機會見到上帝同 Keith Moon？
講真，我點可以錯過呢個機會呀，係咪？
-個呎吋點？ -幾好。唔應該太重， -如果唔係你會太意識到佢嘅存在。 -嗯。好。
開始喇。請由40倒數返轉頭。
要幾耐㗎？
只係幾秒鐘。 -你會唔會知道佢幾時有異象？ -可能。 -由佢嘅，嗯，腦電波圖睇。 -（咇咇聲）佢會模仿快速動眼睡眠。嗯。有咩問題？
（打字聲）（喊聲）
-咩事呀？ -我唔知。可能只係有個電極鬆咗。 -等我...調校吓。 -Ben，你有冇事？
有。好正。只係瞓咗個好覺。咁冇地獄嘅異象？
冇，未見到，但係...LIYANA: 但係咩？
（輕笑）但我喺我個腦入面。而呢個就係我見到你嘅原因。你而家見到我，係因為你拒絕咗我代表嘅一切。你同我講笑呀，阿媽？
-你想我成為科學家。 -唔係。我想你明白科學。但唔係拒絕真主。我冇拒絕真主。係真主拒絕咗我。我唔想講呢樣嘢。
你點解會喺呢度？
拉住我隻手？
點解？
你係咪做仔嚟㗎。唔好咁凡事作對啦。拉住我隻手。
我哋而家喺邊度？
喺 Vijapur，你出世嘅地方。嘩。哦，我六歲之後就未返過呢度喇。睇落好窮。你幾時變得咁好辯駁㗎？
你講得啱。俾我聽吓你祈禱。（呻吟）（用阿拉伯文祈禱）
唔？
睇吓，有幾難呢？
你係咪喺天堂呀，阿媽？
我諗我喺呢度係應該見到上帝嘅。係呀，天堂。 -但係你唔會見到上帝。 -點解唔會？ -因為你唔信。 -ok，如果我見到，我可能就會信。唔會，你唔會㗎。我知你為人--你好固執。 -我不嬲都咁講。 -係你整到我咁固執㗎。 （嘖舌）嗰個係邊個？
街坊其中一個妓女。BEN: 哦，係喎。佢哋十點鐘就會出嚟。你記唔記得我同你講過啲咩？
唔記得。唔係，記得。對腳？
冇錯。望落去佢對腳度。
係鬼。
媽-阿媽，阿媽。呢個--呢個係咩嚟㗎，阿媽？
-嗰啲係咩嚟？ -我幫你唔到。阿媽。阿媽，你咁講係咩意思？
-（嗥叫聲） -（尖叫） 喂，俾幾秒鐘自己回神。 -你有冇事？ -DAVID: 發生咩事？
-你見到啲咩？ -我離唔開...我離唔開...你離唔開啲咩？
Ben?
可能係困喺個地牢度嘅殘留反應。
我以為個頭盔只會引發正面反應。對於最顯著嘅抽樣嚟講，係。但隨住我哋，嗯，擴大咗數據收集，我哋開始見到一啲參加者經歷...反正面嘅反應。 -例如呢？ -悲傷、難過、黑暗，嗯，無意義感。
即係有人見到天堂。有人見到地獄？
呢個字唔係我會用嘅。
哎吔。我哋要傾吓。
我喺度。
繼續。
你認得嗰樣嘢嗎？
一隻手？
被你用「聖水」潑過嗰隻呀。冇錯。喺你嗰次「驅魔」嗰陣時。但嗰啲唔係聖水。係氨水。哼。係呀，「哼」。
呢啲咁嘅氨水。
嗱，等我示範俾你睇。
伸你隻手出嚟。好。
點解我從來未聽過你嘅？
因為我係個修女。
（輕笑）你知唔知有咩嘢係黑白而且成身紅晒㗎？
（笑緊）：一個俾人斬咗頭嘅修女。
到你行喇。
好啦，既然我哋而家證實咗你嗰個小小嘅...聖水魔術只係氨水，而上帝喺呢個地球係冇力量嘅...同埋耶穌係冇可能喺矮牆度跌落嚟都生存到嘅。
Perhaps we should discuss your future. My future?
I don't think you have anything to offer there. Oh, you might be surprised. God gives you His reward in Heaven. But on this Earth... your ass is mine.
You know where to find me.
Oh, my spiritual advisor, how are you?
What are you doing here?
I've been having the most enlightening conversation. I think the Church is too hard on its nuns.
I think they're sexy.
Sister?
-Are you all right? -Yes. I-I saw Leland. We were talking. He talks quite a bit. -Did he hurt you? -No. But we have to talk.
Father, I need you to leave.
We need to work harder on your meditations. Why?
Our enemy has become more aggressive.
We need to prepare. What are you talking about?
Mom loved you. Yeah, but she was disappointed in me, wasn't she?
She was disappointed in everyone who wasn't her. She always had unrealistic expectations for us... But when I dropped out of college, she... Ben, what is this about?
Nothing, she-- I just had a dream about her... You're always the one telling me to ignore my dreams. Can I go to sleep now?
She was disappointed that I ignored Shahada, right?
Ben, let it go.
When she died... did she say anything?
-I'm not doing this. Good night. -Karima...
So, last night?
Yeah, you dirty rat.
Can I say, Kris, you've changed. In what way?
Come on, the masks, the gags, the, um, the burns. I mean, what is going on?
Don't you remember when we were climbing, the things we used to say?
We're never gonna turn into some boring suburban couple?
-Yeah. -So I haven't changed. I just changed back. Hey, could we get another cashier here?! -There's a line! -Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. -Kris, it's okay. -No, Andy. This is who we were. We didn't give a fuck. Yeah, sure, but we can't go through life that way. Sure, we can. I can.
So I was putting the masks back in the closet, and, uh, I found a shoebox... -MAN: Yeah. I'm getting... -Hey, hey, hey, hey, buddy? -Line's back there. -Uh, I just got a couple of things. No, you don't. You got more than us. Guys, can we just not sweat this, okay?
I'm here. Slow your roll. (scoffs) He wants us to slow our roll?
Excuse me. You get to the back of the line right now. Or what?
Seriously, what? What are you gonna do?
Uh-huh. Show me your car, I'll show you mine. Okay, it's... you know what, tiger? Let it go, let it go, let it go, hey, hey. It's okay. Karma will get him. Yeah, that's right. Karma. Think I forgot something anyway.
CASHIER: Next.
Oh, my God, it's over, bitch!
We won't need a bag. Thank you. Andy?
WOMAN: It was just black.
When you put the helmet on me, that's all I saw. I don't know if it was for an hour or for five minutes, but... I didn't think it was working on me.
And then I felt something. What?
A mouth. Like an animal.
It clamped down on my hand, and... I screamed out. I thought maybe it was something on the chair that cut into me, but... then it started dragging me.
And I...
Do you need a minute?
Mm-mm, no.
It dropped me into a pool of tar. And when I looked up, I saw this... massive thing with wings. About ten stories tall. And it was covered with... naked people... stuck to it, screaming.
There are no physical consequences. And any psychological aftereffects?
These are the, uh, post-experiment evaluations. Feel free to go through them. The subjects occasionally experience residual nightmares, but, uh, otherwise they're fine. Even who we just interviewed?
Yes. So, do either of you want to go?
-Or are you done? -Yeah, I'll go. Kristen, we just spoke to someone who saw Hell. Then it's a good thing I don't believe in it.
This is a simple conductive adhesive for the electrodes. Okay.
Huh. Uh... wait. What's wrong?
For some reason it's not registering you. Because I don't have a soul?
Let me go first, Kristen. Why? I thought you weren't going to do this at all. I-I changed my mind. I'm fine, David. No, I-I want to. Please.
Maybe David shouldn't do this.
No, it's just a neurological experiment. He'll be fine.
(whispers): Don't. Kristen. (door opens) (door shuts)
Kristen Bouchard. I take it you got my gift basket. I told you to stay away. But you didn't mean it. You love attention from men, especially with all these months alone. I told you to stay away, or I would kill you. You come into my house to threaten me?
No, the threat was already made. I'm here to deliver on it. Well, I'm sure the police will be thrilled to hear about this.
-(gasps) -(screams) (groaning)
CAL: Hold on, you're okay, David. Hold on. You're okay, David. -Let me just detach this. -What was that?
What was that? What the hell...?
BEN: What happened, what happened? What-what did you see?
Just...
What did you see, David?
You. Me? Doing what?
Killing LeRoux.
(chuckles) Was that Heaven or Hell?
You took an ax, you went to his house...
...and you killed him.
Wow, that seems... unlikely. That's what I saw.
I got to go. Why?
I, uh, I have an, uh...
...an appointment.
He knew. He saw me do it. -Thi-This is your priest friend? -Yes. So, we're testing this brain-mapping device, and he saw me go to LeRoux's house -and kill him. -Well, he obviously sensed your guilt and intuited the rest. No, the details were too specific. He... knew about the ice ax, LeRoux's house. But he knows you-you were a climber, so an ice ax makes sense, and he probably saw LeRoux's house on the news. Kristen. (sighs) I think you should consider going to him and telling him the truth about LeRoux. What? Why?
Well, not for religious reasons but for pragmatic ones. The placebo effect of confessing, of coming clean to someone you consider an authority-- moral authority-- will alleviate your psychosomatic symptoms.
Does that make sense?
I think it does.
DAVID: I'll be right there.
I thought I tied that.
Oh, hey, Kristen, come on in. (panting) You can help me with this. DAVID: Kristen!
Are you all right?
What?
What happened?
DAVID: You were screaming. I was?
Uh, wh-when-when did I put this on?
When did you go?
Go where?
Uh, your session with-with the, with the helmet-- -wh-when did you do it? -I haven't. We were thinking tomorrow.
Didn't I start to put this on, and then y-you said you wanted to go first?
-No. -Is that what you saw-- David putting the helmet on?
Yeah. And I saw him having a vision, too. What vision?
Uh... Well, nothing. I mean, I-I-I-I, I don't remember, but we talked afterwards, after the vision, and then I had an emergency therapy session, and then I went to your room and Leland was there... None of that happened?
No, you've-- you haven't left. You-You've been here. (panting)
You okay?
Yeah, I... I got to go.
I, uh, I-I did this once before. What do you mean?
Uh, we're testing a brain-mapping device, and I saw myself sitting across from you in an emergency session. -(chuckles): Really? -Yeah. How'd that go?
Well, I told you that my friend David saw me hurting LeRoux.
He saw you?
In my vision, in the session. Yeah, that's your, your guilt coming out. That's what you said in my vision, too. Did I have any advice in your vision? Yes, you told me that I should go to David and confess to him for the placebo effect of alleviating my guilt. -Really? -Yeah. Well, that's not my advice, but I think it's interesting that that's what you think my advice would be.
You might have to unpack that for me. I feel like I'm in a house of mirrors here. You speak of David quite often in our sessions. Yeah, well, we work together. So?
Well, your husband is back from nearly two months away, you haven't mentioned him once.
Meaning?
Reflect on what you want your life to be. In this moment. If it's your husband, it's your husband. If it's David, it's David.
Why is it a guy at all?
Yeah, you're right. Um, could be what they represent. Your husband: the responsibilities of home. David: the freedom of work. There's another option. David's becoming a priest, so therefore it's unobtainable attraction. True... or it's a challenge.
How so?
He doesn't become a priest, then he's not unobtainable.
Hey, I need a moment. Okay.
Can I come in?
Huh.
This is nice. Kristen asked me to stay here. Hey, did I say anything? It was in the "huh." It was a very expressive "huh." Okay, how about you and I pretend we're complete strangers and we don't have any history, without any baggage?
Can we do that?
Sure. You start. (sighs): Okay.
Um... so, listen, Kristen has changed. In what way?
In every way. She beat up someone for cutting in line at a supermarket. (laughs) Really?
Sheryl, that's not a good thing. She's more aggressive, she's more dismissive, she's more... she's more angry. Maybe she should be.
You know I go away because that is our business, right?
And if our business goes under, then we can't pay for the mortgage here. You were only supposed to be gone -for a few weeks. -Right, and then the world economy changed. -Right, yeah. -Right?
Because climbing is a luxury item, -and we had ten people drop out. -Uh-huh, uh-huh. I didn't go away for my own pleasure. Yeah, there are reasons for everything, but I am back here because Kristen is overwhelmed. She's working, she's being a mom, and you're wondering why she's changed. Because she's had to adapt. -Okay, so this is my fault? -Yeah. You thought I'd say differently, right?
But I won't. Yes, it's your fault.
What?
No, that's... that's not right.
-Sheryl? -Huh?
Are you okay?
Yeah. (chuckles) Uh... (sighs, shudders)
This is a simple conductive adhesive for the electrodes. -You're sure about this? -I think it's important for all of us to give a thorough assessment. You know, I've been getting a lot of requests from the Mormons to try it. They think it's a direct line to God. Well, if it's good enough for the Mormons... (chuckles) Okay.
Count back from...
So what do you think?
I'm an atheist, I saw my dead mother. You're an agnostic, you saw David have a vision. David is a believer. What does he see?
I don't know.
Three... two... one.
Should I start over again?
Did you get anything?
Not a thing.
Okay, I'm coming in to detach you.
Well, that's appropriate. We get visions, the visionary gets nothing.
I made a mistake.
We were investigating a technology that supposedly gives nonbelievers a glimpse of God.
It magnetically prods certain areas of the brain.
I tried it. I wanted to see whether it could challenge my ideas of visions. And...?
I saw nothing. Not God... or Hell. Because your visions are not coming from regions of your brain. They're coming from God.
Now I can't see anything.
I've tried for hours... meditating.
Nothing's coming. Technology can rewire the brain. My guess is that you've lost everything you've gained.
Now start over. And you'd better do it quickly because Mr. Townsend is coming after us and we need your abilities to know how to protect ourselves.
And, David, don't use technology to rewire your brain again. It's not a toy.
MARX: So...
...what are your findings?
After much deliberation, we do not recommend the technology for further research at the Vatican.
-Why? -Yeah, -wh-why? -At the minimum the device reduces spirituality to the stimulation of synapses. It can also rewire the brain's receptivity to the work of the Holy Spirit. Last, a significant percentage of the participants are seeing visions of Hell. And is that a bad thing?
Excuse me?
Fear of Hell can lead people to God. Is their faith less legitimate? But is that the kind of faith we want to promote? Who are we to judge what brings someone into the fold?
It sounds like the helmet's ability to help people directly envision the realities of our faith could be an asset for the Church. But the harm could undoubtedly outweigh any potential benefits. What's the evidence of this harm?
-Well, you... -KRISTEN: None. There's no concrete evidence to support that claim. Furthermore, the helmet offers the unique ability to help people suffering from neurological conditions, such as depression. That's a miracle in itself-- religious or not-- and if people want to attribute those qualities to God, then, hey, lucky you. BEN: I-I saw my dead mom, and my experience may not classify as, uh, harm in the empirical sense, but it felt real and I've been having trouble sleeping ever since. KRISTEN: Yeah, but that's from your preexisting night terrors. I mean, we can't condemn the technology -for any preexisting... -Okay. The question is a simple one. Should this technology be sent on to the Pontificia Accademia delle Scienze for further examination?
-No. -Yeah, absolutely. -Maybe. Okay, this is helpful, thank you. Leave your research with me, and I'll make a decision.
Please, God...
-ANDY: Babe, can we talk? -(sighs)
Okay. (door opens)
So... here's my suggestion.
We sell the climbing business, and I take a job at REI. You quit your job at the Catholic Church, and, uh, we just focus more on home. We move Sheryl out of the garage, you take it back as an office. You always wanted to, uh, write that book on criminal defense. You've got a job offer from REI?
No, I mean, not yet. Uh, but I know people who work there. On the sales floor?
No, in the corporate offices. I'm talking about a nine-to-five job. This is something I should've done ten years ago. Why would I quit my job?
Kristen.
You have changed. And I think it's directly connected to the burden of carrying this family...
...and this job. There is something in it that is making you...
...different.
It's making me tougher. It's making me more self-sufficient. You beat up a man at the supermarket. We're wearing animal masks to have sex now.
Okay, this is what I suggest. You try to get a job at REI, and when you do, fine, then we'll sell the business and then we can talk, but this job-- my job-- is not the problem. It supplies our health care. It's our lifesaver.
That's mine. Well, I didn't know what they were until Laura saw them... Laura saw them?
She came into the room when I was looking. And she said that they were maps to kill people. Mm, no, they're not, they're not. It's... Then what are they?
It-It's just... it's from therapy. It's a way to deal with anger. When people piss me off, I draw where they live. It's-it's meaningless, it-it's nothing. Your children don't know that.
I need to talk to Laura. Not now, not-- tomorrow. -(crying) -She's okay. She's fine. I explained to her that... parents don't mean things. They pretend. (crying) It's okay. We'll be okay.
We'll be good.
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